Three of Swords

Something at work hurt, a passed-over role, a criticism, a betrayal, and you are handling it so well that nobody would guess. Handling it well is not the same as handling it.

What happened at work that you have not let yourself react to?

Tell one person outside work what actually happened, without the professional framing.

The loss hurt, and you have turned it into a lesson so fast that you skipped the part where it hurt.

What did the money loss take that was not money?

Say that part out loud to someone this week.

This hurt. You are being reasonable about it, understanding, fair. Reasonable is a way of not being in the pain.

What did they do that you have explained instead of felt?

Stop explaining it for one day. Feel what is there.

A hard truth is part of this decision and you keep routing around it. The decision will not be right until you go through it.

What painful fact are you designing this decision to avoid?

Write the fact down today and make the decision with it on the page.

Something broke a while ago and you have been very functional since. Functional is not healed.

What have you not cried about, or raged about, that you have been efficient about instead?

Give it one hour this week with no productivity attached.

The work hurt to make, or hurt to have judged, and you have gone cool and technical since. The coolness is protecting you and starving the work.

What are you not putting on the page because it would cost you something to write it?

Write that part today, badly, and keep it.